Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Renewed confidence, I would say.
Can't believe I could
talk econs to Siang yee over the phone. I never thought I'd be able to explain something to someone again. When siang asked if I was explaining to her based on nothing, I said yes and we were both shocked haha :)
I feel smarter each day because I am working hard everyday :)
I think that is the joy of studying which I never knew. :)
I like it that I don't complain that I do not have time to study for my papers.
Fact is I have been studying and guess what, 90% of the class hasn't started studying for promos and I have already been studying for 2 weeks :D
I didn't realise that I am proud of myself :) I really am!
Mei Shan I love you hahaha!
Mr Chew (new VP) is a very very nice person.
Considering it was the first time we met and he already placed so much trust in me, I really like him.
I felt so comfortable explaining to him why I felt I did badly, and I felt so good when he kept shaking his head to my results and said matter-of-factly "its okay I am sure you'll do so well at the end of this two years"
Coming from a person like him, it made me feel a lot more confident about myself.
I am not stupid after all.
I never was.
And Miss Ng is too kind, she couldn't stop praising me in front of sissy and Mr Chew.
I didn't know she was so proud of me all along.
She sounded like she was boasting about a smart daughter that she had.
I never felt like this from mummy. I felt so loved.
There is this unspeakable feeling that I have for Miss Ng, she is really really very nice.
I am glad that she is my CT.
I think my lucky stars are still shining very brightly.
Because I have the support of many.
My biggest enemy - nobody but myself ; )
I have been a strong girl.
Not many others of the age 17 could take what I have been through.
And with this strong will, I am going to shine. ; )
Yes Mei Shan you will :)
Mr Chew said your favourite line when I was about to leave the conference room.
He said, "sleep well tonight and tomorrow will be a better day."
I smiled at the very line :)
You know what, you'll really be my bff forever no matter what life brings. It was just meant to be. When I feel the most lost, my first instinct will still be typing you a text. And your replies, which forever would be "ahya you are just thinking too much" do make me feel better even if I wish to deny and argue that you won't understand. Truth is you were always trying to make my problems seem small so that I will be less bothered by it. Thank you for all that you've taught me ; )
shannn <3{10:24 PM]
